to date or not to date

We all have doubts of insecurity and we intend to back off on things we are afraid of. If someone ask me if I like my life I would say “hellz yaz” but I feel like I am missing a part of myself or something that makes my happiness full. I am talking about a boyfriend, ya I am having a girl moment here lol.

I am kind of interested in several guys around my area but I don’t know if I should give myself the opportunity to give my heart to them and do what I think is right. The main problem with them is that “they are cheating whores” and that’s the truth. Its hard to find a good guy and I always say “if you want a good guy, you have to be one yourself”.

So its at this moment were I say to myself …”if you like me, I want to make sure you don’t break me…” but yet again that scares people away and I think I just end up scaring people away.lol

The only reason why im typing this blog is because there is this guy who I want to give myself a change to date and if I give him reason to care for me, then I will be risking yet filling out that empty hole I have within myself and be happy with my lover. Like a romance sorry lol GONE WILD!!

A lot of people don’t want to be old and live alone, I for sure don’t want that in my life and I rather fuck up and keep trying then not try at all. So this is a new step for me my LOVE LIFE.

YA carlos is going to date some HOT STUD, but hopefully im good enough for my babe and hopefully I still get a kick of that romance magic I dreamed of. Flowers are my dream key for romance and of course FOOD!!!.

CALL ME A PUSSY BUT LIFE SUX MAN. I need a beer.